i'm so SO fucking sick of being people's emotional punch bags.
just because my feelings are very easily seen and always swim at the surface doesn't make then a good target practice for you people with shitty aiming skills on others.
and i am the biggest idiot for still loving you.
it's good that you feel that you're not good enough for me for once. because sometimes, i believe that too. you constantly take your shit out on me, and then expect me to still love you and forgive you and comfort you when you finally start feeling bad for doing this to me. and fucking hell, you know i'll always end up being there for you. frankly, you make me so tired.
today's my mum's birthday.
i'm going to make sure that i'm happy for her.
she deserves at least that much from me.
since i've been crying on and off around her.
well, at least there's one good thing about this week.
i've forgotten to eat so many times, i've dropped two kilos.
