Why do I do this?
Every night.
I'M SAD.
THAT'S RIGHT PEEPS.
I'M SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD.
SAD.
Monday, November 30, 2009
It's too late...
formal and peer support camp
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Long time no blog~
Formal was fun~
So was peer support camp, though they left me feeling fully dead afterwards...
All the photos of the formal are up on picsa or FB, so if you want go check them out.
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On the other note...
WICKED WAS EPICLY AWESOME.
Like, seriously. AMAZING. Just look at the photo on the side:
The details on the set were INSANE. I snuck this photo in just before the show, we technically weren't allowed any camera inside. ;D
The singing was BRILLIANT.
Acting was AMAZING!
The lady playing Elphaba was a substitute, because Amanda Harrison was sick, but she was FREAKING AMAZING. Even better than Amanda, I'm so happy I got to see her. Her 'Defying Gravity' was just mind blowing. MIND. BLOWING.
Fiyero was played by Rob Mills (DROOL) who just simply fantastic. Glinda was just as whack and adorable as I thought she would be, it was amazing. I think I got most awed by the costumes and the sets though. The amount of detail that went into them is just insane.
However, the sad thing is I still think POTO was superior compared to this.
Both are amazingly good, but call my biased but I still like Phantom way better...hehe
Musicals = Best waste of $100-ish ever.
Brought back the program and a pair of green glasses that they use in the musical.
WOOT. I'm bringing them to school tomorrow, so yeah, hehe....
So yeah, that sums up my day for yesterday...
Today had to go maths tutoring, so not very interesting.
Procrastinating right now, lol.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Called Kids Help Line yesterday.
Lianne was really really nice.
I should call more, lol.
First time I called a 1800 number, FEEL PROUD, LOL.
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And now I'm feeling really bored.
I went to toutoring today, cause of movie tomorrow with the guys at Chats.
However, we are going to watch New Moon...eurgh.
BUT we're watching Time Traveller's Wife after that. WOOT!
Maybe I should wear a 'I hate twilight' t-shirt to the movies, LOL.
that would be funny.
It's gonna be BOILING.
Far out...
I HATE SUMMER.
HATE HATE HATE.
No matter how many times Tristan is gonna take me camping, I'll still hate it.
BUGS. SUN. GAAAHHH...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACEY!!!!!
Sweet 16~ ♥
Yeah, that's the only reason for this blog post. ;DD
Love you girl~
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Just got back from formal...
Before I die from tiredness, a few...interesting points of the evening.
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- Tristan actually wore the same suit as Edward Cullen. He printed out a picture just to prove it.
- We won the 'award' for the 'Couple most like Twilight'. Hoorah. Not. I am never gonna live this down now...
- Angel kissed Sean for three seconds just so she could see me and Tristan kiss for 50 seconds...that was SAD.
- The music was killer. As in, it hurt my chest, it was that loud. And it was all techno...-shudder-
- Fell asleep on the trip back, forgot to tell Tristan's dad my address. He managed to get us to Eastwood at least, but then they finally woke me up...
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And I can't actually remember what the rest of the night was spent doing...eurgh...
Okay, I really am that tired...
I shall sleep and I'll update the blog tomorrow about Wexp today.
wexp - day two.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
ZE TIME BALL >>
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TUESDAY
Got to North Syd at 7:30 to get to Combined choir, lol. Still managed to make it back to the Observatory before 9:30 though. We were supposed to be there early to go to the Powerhouse, but Geoff's meeting got moved forward, so he ended up leaving before we got there. But oh well, still brilliant.
Us four got split up after that, I got to tag around with Andrew (AJ) for the tours, he's so freaking nice. As in, so freaking nice, I swear I'm like half in love, he's THAT nice. I'm only joking about that though, lol. I'm not that depraved. hehe...
We got another tour today of about 70 kids, and we got a kid with a wheelchair. AJ brought out a telescope for the kids to look at ouside instead, and we got to stalk people again. ;DD
Afterwards, AJ got all the kids inside for the 3D movie, he gave me 1/2 hour to play with the telescope myself. WOOOHOOO!!! Soo happy~!!!
He also let me swirl around the planetarium for a bit also, so freaking awesome! We had a brilliant time spotting the different constellations and stars in the sky. Orion, Scorpius, Crux, Canis Major and even Ursa Major. Oh, and the 'Flying Emu', which is actually only made up of the black spaces between the Milky Way, and can ONLY be seen in Aus. Haha...
After the tours, we split into pairs again and checked the entire observatory for 'hazards' that could be potentially dangerous. Random fireplaces everywhere, and their low counters actually gave me bruises because of their dodgy positioning... *writes down hazard*
We then had lunch, and Aberjeet and Charlie taught me and Evangeline how to play checkers, lol. It was funny watching both try and kill each other, only to have them go on a 'Cat and Mouse' chase across the board, lol.
After, we went up to the top of the Observatory and we watched Charlie drop the time ball at exactly 1 pm. it was awesome, but the stairs to get up there were so scary. They were more like ladder rungs than stairs actually, I had a bit of trouble getting down...I was too scared...lol. Tomorrow, we're going up there again...except we go outside onto the very tippy top, where we apparently get the best view in Sydney. I need to bring camera. :DD
Lazed around after that, doing random research on constellations for a report we have to give in afterwards, but overall, it's all good. xDD
Another brilliant dayy~!!!
Ahh...
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Formal tomorrow.
-screams-
I am so stressed for that...T.T
Stupid dress...*whacks*
wexp - day one.
Monday, November 16, 2009
Work Experience. Freaking brilliant. I'm not joking, it so god damn FUN!---
MONDAY
Arrived on Observatory Hill. Stared at the gorgeous scenery for about 15 minutes, before the doors were opened. I found out that three other kids were also doing wexp at the same time as me, lol. Geoff, the guy in charge, remarked that it was "incredibly nice of (him) to let four of (us) come at once."
So, the three other kids are:
Evangeline:
She's kinda shy, and she doesn't talk much. I think she's Indian, but yeah...she could be Sri Lankan
She's very pretty, and around the same height as Elaine and Allie I think. ;DD
Comes from St George's Catholic School.
Charlie:
And this guy is freaking TALL. Like...REALLY tall. I feel short standing next to him...he's like a wall. DD:
Brown hair, has a bad habit of chewing his nails and fingers. Don't ask me why I noticed these things.
Comes from William Clark's College. (They apparently have ads on buses advertising their school...)
Aberjeet:
Shorter than me this time, lol. Kinda really thin and lanky, Indian.
Shorter than me this time, lol. Kinda really thin and lanky, Indian.
Lives in Quakers Hill as well. Tends to talk really really fast. Has really neat handwriting though.
Comes from Girraween High School.
So we started off by doing the whole low down on safety procedures, hazards, stranger danger and the whole shebang. Afterwards, we got split into pairs My partner is Charlie for this week, he's really nice. Talkative too, more than the other two, so at least I had conversation.
We ended up going to see the big telescope first, which as awesome We got to try our hand at operating the thing as well, which was brilliant. Managed to look at the sun and spot the prominences coming from the sides, and then we got a look at Venus too. Unfortunately, Venus is almost as far away as it is possible from earth, nearly behind the sun, so it wasn't that clear. But oh well. ;DD
Afterwards, we went back down to the staff room. I had to sort out an entire year full of night tour schedules for this year. It wasn't too bad, but yeah, can't say it was interesting. Afterwards, we learnt how to do the 'Meet and Greet' thing at the front desk, and enter their records into the database.
Me and Charlie then got to tag along with a tour, which we stalked people on the Harbour Bridge with the big telescope (hehe), got a really good 3D movie tour of the Solar System, and sat around with the kiddies and watched as Sylvie worked the planetarium. Then we went out and had lunch, came back and pretty much just browsed around the various astronomy sites which are really cool, and talked.
So uber uber uber funn!!!!!
meh.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I realised just then that my dress which I'm wearing to the NSB formal looks like Bella Swan's dress. F***********CK
Great...Now I'm never gonna hear the end of this from Tristan and Alex....T.T...Why did it take me so long to realise? PFFT. Now I'm annoyed at myself for not going out to get another dress. -sigh-
Pray that the boys won't notice...==;
And yes >>
that is what it looks like pretty much..T.T
that is what it looks like pretty much..T.T
ARG.
Annoyed.
To the Max.
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I'm kinda stressing. Over Work Experience tomorrow...And I realise that is slightly fail. Actually, that's very fail. WHY AM I STRESSING? Gaaahhhhh. I mean, I'm really looking forward to it, but still.... :|
On another note, went shopping yesterday with mum after lunch. Went to Target at Macquarie, and I finally managed to get myself a pair of shoes for the formal. (Took me a while)
Also managed to get three shirts for work experience, a black one, pink one and a green striped one. They look really good actually, so I'm happy. Saw Joanna there too, she was also buying w.exp clothes, LOL.
I shall take a shower soon. Mum made me walk to tutoring place...in this weather. With the sun right over head.
Uphill the entire way...eww. I stink.
Hello, I just got back from the shower. Now my hair smells nice. ;DD
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One day, I am going to kill myself by not being careful. Remember that cabinet in my hallway? Well, today, I wonderfully managed to crash my LEFT side into that stupid thing, and almost causing the mirror (now replaced) to fall AGAIN. Luckily I stopped it before it fell, but now my left leg is throbbing. And I can feel another bruise coming up...T.T
I really need to watch where I am going...though this time, I wasn't wearing my glasses, so at least that's some excuse...
formal shoes...D:
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Spent most of last night crying. Not fun at all. It really makes me jealous of all the girls who can cry and still look adorable or cute or pretty. How do they do it?! I ended up looking like a puffy panda...And yeah, ridiculous to the max. Because puffy eyes combined with loss of sleep gives you puffy eye bags too...disgusting things.
I blame it on PMS. Stupid hormones...why can't you just leave me alone?! And then you realise that males always put us females down because we PMS. They haven't figured out that they themselves PMS, ALL THE TIME. Yeah. And they don't even have periods as a reason for it.
And to cap it off, my mother somehow managed to sit me down in spite of my protests and PLUCK my EYEBROWS. AGAIN. F****CKing hell. Disregarding the fact I was crying and etc, looking and feeling quite shit, she just went: your eyebrows need plucking. Gods. I wanted to kill her.
I'm still confused. Very very. I know I'll say yes without a second thought, and I don't think I'll regret it, but I'm still confused. Why yesterday night though?
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Whereas I'm basically half lamenting over the fact that the heels were all insanely high, and I can't wear them without at least being a head taller than my date. Well, okay, not a head. But like...me on 10cm heels?! Gods...
Now I shall go eat lunch.
Bye bye.
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The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.
I'll watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.
I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.
When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.
I'll watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.
I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.
When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.
write love ♥
Friday, November 13, 2009
Today was international 'To Write Love On Her Arms' day. It was so nice to walk around at school and on the trains and see all these people with the world on their arms. ♥
I've also got one on my wrist as well, a small black 'love'.
Ah...it's so happy making. ;DD
Finally, You don't know how happy I am that it's the weekends. This week. Has been tiring. SC was okay, but it was still draining to sit in that hall for two whole days. Gods, imagine our HSC. -shudder-
Like...an entire week in that hall. Seriously, that's terrifying. Stuffy, silent, dingy hall...eww.
I was sad last night, and wrote a five page letter to no one. That's right. Five A4 pages to no one. I think this is the first letter which I've written that I haven't shredded or burnt or flushed down the toilet, lol. And this morning on the train, I wrote another two pages. I'm such a sad case. Haha....and my new pen which I have never used before writing that letter died after I finished it. Pens are getting too cheap these days. Either that, or I wasted more ink that I thought I did.
On the plus side, after 5 auditions, I made it into acappella~! Woot! So so happy...;D
Sad thing is, my singing is like...probably the only thing which I'm proud of, or has a small ego attached to. I'm so glad I made it in, I swear I stuffed my auditions...my voice cracked on the highest note, stupid dry throat...and the 'dowahhs' were just dodgy. But yeah...so happy! This means I'll be doing four choirs next year. Woohoo!! And musical...ah, I'm going to like next year. Just not the work loads of course, lol.
I still need shoooooesss! Crappp...
And formal's in like, what? Five days? Arg. I fail at getting ready. I might just wear my white heels instead, they're really nice. Either those, or I'll go shopping tomorrow...hopefully find a nice pair with not too high heels. Because:
1. I can't walk in high high high heels.
1. I can't walk in high high high heels.
2. I hate stilettos anyway.
3. I can't be taller than my date. ;D
Magazine Committee is taking over my lifee....DD:
Seriously. I've spent the past how many days jsut sitting at those computers? All we do is make magazine pages, listen to disney songs (namely 'I'll Make A Man Out Of You') over and over again, eating pizza and getting really pissed off at our computers. Though the songs and pizza are good. ;D
Stole and ate too much bombe alaska yesterday, lol.
Now I can't stand chocolate. Or meringue. Or anything sweet really...
Now, I should shut up on this uber uber long blog post.
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I can get used to lying on hills in the sun.
do the conga...;D
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Let's CELEBRATE~!!
School Cert is OVER.
Disregard the fact we have computing test on tomorrow and Friday. Lol. It doesn't count. ;DD
Anyway, now we can seriously just relax.
Oh my god...T.T
I can't believe it's over.
Seriously. I'm feeling so tired again, lol.
Not good, maybe I should take a cat nap.
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I'm confused as to why I still blog.
It's a valid question actually.
There's nothing really that interesting happening in my life at all that I would want to share with the world...like...in terms of blogging about, that is. And the other things I really don't want to blog about anyway.
I should start on that Diary thingy for Allie. I'm only writing it for this year though, btw.
And every diary entry gets one blog post in return. hehehe...xDDD
And now I just want to sleep...
I'm turning into a koala.
All I do nowadays is eat and sleep. ;D
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This morning, I woke up early to go to choir.
I managed to drag myself outta bed, but I basically killed the mirror in my hall on the way to the bath room.
I was half running to the bathroom because I realised I needed to get something really quick, but I turned the corner in my hall. I managed to collide my entire right side of my hip/leg into the cabinet draw there, which has a mirror placed on top. (Large mirror btw)
While I was swearing my head off, the mirror happened to fall down and drop down to the floor with a loud crack. Which means that now I have a bruise on my leg the size of a large plum and 7 years worth of bad luck for breaking a mirror. Great start to the day...
And me and Suvarna were kinda/almost late to the Maths SC. Got flamed by one of the instructors...though it wa HER fault for locking the stupid door, and failing to hear my knocking for five minutes forcing me to go through the back way. Which ended with her yelling and screaming at me.
Beeping hell.
And my compass was dodgy. The knob was screwed on so weird, I couldn't tighten the screw at all. Had to get the male instructor to tighten it up, so lame.
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You might have noticed the blog skin change.
I am LOVING this new blog skin.
And that picture up there, in the elft hand corner.
That's so me. ;DD
sc...shite
Sunday, November 8, 2009
I wasted time today.
SC tomorrow! Ack.
I should be studying...
I'll do it later...T.T
I wrote an entire grid paper page with the letters 'i l o v e y o u' over and over again.
LOL. Like, epic fail/waste of time much? Not to mention ink and paper too.
Now I'm gonna be sad and upload it. lol.
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I love my star boy.
too tired...
Friday, November 6, 2009
hahaha.
Yeah, today was tiring. Then again, I think every day is tiring.
My bra died on me on the way back home...DD:
Stupid thing. grrr...
Nothing much happened for the past few days I must say.
Wednesday was wonderful, but I need to learn to articulate properly. Or at least learn english properly so that people can understand what I'm saying/talking about.
Thursday was funny. Work experience stuff...WOOT, Sydney Observatory~!!
Can't wait, it's gonna rock.
Today was...mundane. Meh.
Felt tired for the whole day.
I really should learn to go to sleep earlier.
and I'm going to sleep now.
Too tired to think properly.
happy november~
Sunday, November 1, 2009
I don't have much motivation to blog today...
lol, but I shall.
Ri, this is for you again. ;DD
Yesterday was a pretty bad day.
My range of emotions for the day pretty went as follows:
-Shit...
-slightly better.
-then felt shit again.
-happy.
-shit.
-fucked up.
-even more fucked up.
-felt less fucked up.
-felt less shit.
-felt a whole lot better.
-but then that didn't last.
Oh well.
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Today was better. Woke up after a rather nice dream this time.
I haven't had nightmares for a week now, I'm feeling a lot better sleeping.
Well, I went to tutoring, which wasn't bad. Talked to Brian about NSB's subject choices next year and stuff. Another person doing Modern Hist, lol.
went swimming for the first time in a few months, I think. (Last time was before IPT was due, LOL)
Felt good. but I realised I gained weight again...NOOO!!
Ack. Must lose weight...T.T
-sigh-
I wish I would follow my own advice sometimes. Or at least listen to myself a bit more. I fail at that aspect.
First day of November today~
Hope and pray that this month will be better than last.
please let this be better.
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my poor poor bottle. you're cracking aren't you?
you said forever. keep your promise.
